So, I started blogging in 2002, this site’s archives go back to 2003, I have been struggling to explain what I’m doing with this since the beginning. Never mind to anyone else to myself as well. I have used the phrase “something to entertain myself on the train” and overused the word diarise frankly. It’s … Read More
(Content Warning: More mental health stuff) It has been a standing joke for as long as I can remember that despite not being born Catholic I automatically feel guilty about everything. Some of this I put down to Anxiety… ok I’m easing off a bit on the ‘I have never had anxiety it was misdiagnosed … Read More
Managed to park without issue in central Manchester today – yes it’s a ridiculous thing to be proud of but I am. For a bit over two weeks now my heart has hurt, I guess I wondered if it would show up on the reading; it didn’t because of course it’s psychological pain not physical. … Read More
I’ve been thinking a lot about The Old Guy I used to work with today. He had an adult ADHD diagnosis and later developed dementia, a lot of the people at the nursing home were very surprised that he wasn’t more distressed by the dementia. It was because he was used to the idea that … Read More
(Content Warning – poor mental health, description of a mental break, mention of suicide) I’ve mentioned a few times that I suffered from a mental break last year. They used to be called nervous breakdowns. Technically a doctor can’t say definitively that I did because I didn’t immediately end up in in-patient care. However two … Read More
I’ve been concentrating on therapy to deal with trauma symptoms – trying not to dissociate and remain in the present, and appreciating that some of it does apply to dealing with ADHD. Mostly the stuff about staying in the present and getting organised. However, I’m really struggling with any of the organised elements of work … Read More
(Content Warning – talking about mental health and self diagnosis, specifically mentioning ADHD, ASD, CPTSD, Depression also referencing suicide ideation) I keep seeing pro-self-diagnosis and vehemently anti self diagnosis things up on Facebook, Twitter and TikTok, hell The Comic Satyr even referenced me in their tweet about it. Originally I was very pro-self-diagnosis because there’s … Read More
M-i-L suggested that all the awful at the end of last year was to balance out all the good stuff over the summer. Well, it’s still happening and I’m not a fan. The thing about the heights of feeling last year, the sheer ecstasy is that this year I have the lows. The physically painful … Read More
(Content Warning – more of me musing on my mental health which is pretty poor right now) I’ve mentioned before my struggling with the way Laura Richards signs off from Real Crime Profile, her sign off is ‘Always trust your instincts’ and I’ve written before about how I was taught not to trust my instincts, … Read More
(Content warning – a lot of mental health stuff) I found it. Far too late. But I did find it. I’ve been looking for patterns as part of therapy. I knew there was one left, there’s probably more but I knew there was a really important one, I just couldn’t see it properly. I think … Read More
