(Content Warning: This is a full and frank description of my latest sex toy purchase. If it makes you uncomfortable to read about me masturbating then please don’t read on.) The same friend as suggested I buy a knock-off womaniser had me spend money on a vibrator that’s normally over a hundred quid. I am … Read More
I always want to spell his name with a v or not enough fs. I only just discovered Kirill Gerstein as a pianist and he’s got some really solid opinions on Rachmaninoff which I don’t have the ears to properly understand if we’re quite honest, but I like the way he plays him. I wonder … Read More
(Content Warning: Mentions my own suicidal ideation and preferred method) Turns out you probably can be Depressed without being suicidal. I guess that’s something of a learning curve. I haven’t been suicidal in a really long time, like I think over a year. I don’t think I’d properly absorbed that. I’m suicidal again, I don’t … Read More
Turns out that if I am told that wings are served with ghost pepper hot sauce then I’ll avoid them, if I am tempted to a pub by FJ and tennis who then provides me with hot wings and I don’t find out what pepper is in then until I’m half way in… well then … Read More
Today I had a very surreal experience. I was at work and I suddenly came over wanting to cry but obviously couldn’t so I tried to concentrate on work and felt like I’d divided myself in two and one of me was screaming in a tiny room. It was so real, it was like I … Read More
I laughed at some of the memes. A lot of the memes to be honest. This from someone who was so horrified by her reaction to Maggie Thatcher’s death that I donated to Shelter. I guess I did recognise that I was dehumanising/othering people who happen to be a magnitude of wealthy that is completely … Read More
One of the earliest memories I have of my Great Uncle Arthur is of him telling me that I shouldn’t use “Real” as an intensifier as it was an Americanisation and I should use “really”, I may have rolled my eyes at him, obviously I wanted to use ‘real’ because it made me sound American … Read More
I was late to the whole tabletop RPG thing, by which I mean I was intrigued at the group of nerdy guys who were running it when I was in fifth form but I wasn’t actually able to play it myself. Mostly I saw them playing OWOD Vampire (Old World of Darkness as opposed to … Read More
It’s a question that plagues me every so often there’s this interplay of the private and the public that I have variously ascribed to too much reality tv at a formative age and to my brain being neurodiverse (ADHD, Autism, CPTSD and Anxiety with Depression at last count). Theres a real sense in my mind … Read More
(The brief for this entry is as follows: It can be a coming out letter or a letter regarding how you hate their homophobia or whatnot. You don’t have to send it.) Dear Dad, I’m bisexual, I have been since, well, I don’t know when but I’ve known it since I was thirteen or fourteen … Read More
