‘Open your heart Mish. Trust to fate rather than fighting against it for once in your life. It might be worth it. And if it isn’t, you’re no worse off at the end. You’re hurting now, so why is a fear of hurting preventing you from doing something to end the hurt?’
Posted by Erfalaswen @ 11/02
My heart’s open honey. My hearts never been closed there are new people flooding into it every year. Trust in fate? Fate would have me at some snotty posh approved by my parents university doing somesort of humanities degree and probably a masters by now. Fate’d have me clothed in exactly the same sort of relationship garb as everyone else. I’d probably have a relatively nice boyfriend, maybe plans to move in together even be assuming wedding and kids.
Well fuck that I plan to be immortal. I plan to do everything that I want to do. I plan to love as fiercely as I know how and I plan to hurt. I’m hurting now? I’ve hurt before, I’ll hurt again and I will bloody use the hurt. Afraid to do something? Yeah perhaps I was, more afraid than I’ve ever been…but ‘Fear is the mind-killer, fear is the litle death that brings total obliteration. I have faced my fear. I have permitted it to pass over me and through me. And now it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see it’s path. Where fear has gone there will be nothing, Nothing. Only I will remain.’
And I do remain and I know my path and I will fight fate; I will be immortal, I will use this hurt and I will never lie back and lose whatever spark I have be it the smallest light known to man. Oh and Miss UD? I have no plans in ever accepting the path that is laid out for me. I will find my own way and fuck the hurt.