Gods I don’t even know who counts anymore. I guess the first girl I kissed, the girl on holiday because to be honest until I actually kissed her I’m not sure I was really out to myself, it was all just very theoretical at that point. When I told my best friend at the time … Read More
I mean knew what? Funnily enough I remember thinking deeply (for my age at the time not in comparison with deep adult thoughts) about gender but sexuality didn’t make an appearance for a while. I remember wondering what made a boy a boy and a girl a girl mostly because I did not like wearing … Read More
I am honestly not sure I had any experiences a a child foreshadowing my sexuality. Or nothing as obvious as you see on TV at any rate. I do remember getting angry with Dad over a Saturday lunch about him equating gay men and paedophiles, or at any rate him agreeing with the radio news … Read More
I suppose if I wanted to be very boring then I would say that I am bisexual and a girl. But that wouldn’t give you much to read would it? There was a girl I sat next to in French when I was at secondary school and I fancied the pants off her. later I … Read More
(Contains spoilers to The Machine movie and comedy routine) Sorry, I mistyped that title – THE MACHIIIIINE!!!!!!!!!!! Ok, if you were a certain sort of person in 2016 you died laughing to this sketch on Youtube. I was not certain that I was the sort of person that was supposed to find this funny, but … Read More
(Content Warning – description of seeing a suicide attempt. A lot of rambling and a lot of Mental health stuff) About six months ago I saw a girl in school uniform hanging from barbed wire under a bridge. And it totally wrecked me. I’ve been doing a lot of therapy. I’ve been doing a lot … Read More
Fucking hell. I, and – fuck it I can’t be the only one – a whole chunk of my generation, have had some bad luck when it comes to children’s tv presenters. Jimmy Saville was just too fucked up for words but at least it was – in hindsight for those of us viewers who … Read More
Today I’m exhausted and in pain. Dancing on Saturday was great but oh I’m still paying for it in codeine. I’ve been doing trauma work for about six months now and it I dunno ramped up a notch? This last week. I’m mentally and emotionally exhausted as well as physically. Honestly I’ve been making progress … Read More
The way I understand the world is relational. I don’t think that’s a word. The way I understand what’s happening in the world around me is by understanding what context things are in. Something is seen only in relation to other things, relation to time, to space, to people. If someone asks a question like … Read More
It was Wrong Mike and Rabbit Girl’s joint 40th birthday party tonight and it was 80s/90s themed. Rather than wear something that I would have worn in the 90s (which is what Goat was wearing – combats and plaid) I opted to take some inspiration from the last time I got gussied up for a … Read More
