(Content Warning: Mental Health stuff including mentioning suicidal ideation) I have been Depressed pretty much as long as I can remember, I have a name for it even, The Swamp. Maybe the stuff pre seven years old wasn’t Depression per se but some of those thoughts are at the very least concerning with hindsight. This … Read More
I am glad that I know Glasgow pretty well, not only because it makes studying there easier but also because it doesn’t feel as bad as perhaps it would knowing that the last time I was here I went on a date with The Fae Ref. I suspect if I ever end up in A&E … Read More
Last year I wondered if I actually was Greyromantic, I was caught up in I think one of the most intense romances of my life. I do love regularly, I love widely, apparently I can love a lot deeper than I thought, but romance? Romance varies from partner to partner, a take out and chips, … Read More
I am staying in The White County at The Jellicle’s parents for Christmas. I’m not sure the last time I was here for Christmas, to be quite honest I’m not sure the last time I wasn’t working until Christmas Eve or Christmas Day and yet this year I finished yesterday and I’m not working again … Read More
Yesterday I went to see the doctor about getting a diagnosis sorted out. Ended up in a conversation about trauma and information processing. Turns out when I couldn’t work out why I was struggling to process the dance calls at The Printers Guild Ball and was wondering if it was the low lighting or something … Read More
This is such a weird question to me. I don’t know. When do people start to know? I’ve always known that I find women incredibly attractive, but when I was a teenager the level to which that was normalised seems a lot more than now, like obviously all women find women attractive, it doesn’t mean … Read More
I don’t think I’ve ever really had a Pride wish list before. I usually buy flags to decorate the house because that really cheered me up during lockdown, but to be honest our house is kind of covered in rainbows never mind if it’s Pride month. And to be honest this is where the capitalist … Read More
Love? Men? All of the above? (Content warning – serious navel gazing and I’m talking about my love life) Saying I didn’t do love when I was nineteen was a nice shorthand for ‘I’ve read the Ethical Slut’ (I hadn’t) and I want to sleep around without people getting pissed off or me cheating on … Read More
(Content warning – frank and casual mentions of rape) I described myself as nominally bisexual the other day. It occurred to me that if I’ve ever done that before it would have been in my twenties when I was struggling to get a girlfriend, or any interest from women and I couldn’t turn around for … Read More
I often do not write very encouragingly about men on this blog, it’s a place to vent and frankly I don’t think any woman gets to forty without ending up needing to vent about men. Maybe lesbians if there’s a real place to live in some kind of utopia like a low-budget version of The … Read More
