I had a really good time this weekend LARPing and I was on an absolute high from essentially taking part in a community group art project. (The joint creation of an imaginary world).
But what stays with me is the conversation this morning out of character when it was confirmed that there is an uptick in racism on that field. It’s not just me. But is it just the reflection of the current society that no one can do anything about or is there actually a problem that people aren’t acting on.
I think I’m out, I think this not wanting to be is just me enjoying the privilège of being able to ignore bigotry not aimed at me and wondering if there’s any point in emailing a conduct team who are likely to tell me that it’s just me being out of step with the modern world and that there is no problem it’s hustling how they choose to run the rules.
I suspect this is just a form of grieving that I’m doing, the desires to contact people to tell them what I perceive as a problem is kind of like the bargaining section of grieving. I’m not a fan.