Moaning Mishey

Ok ok I know I know I haven’t updated. I’m busy! I work for this bloody school, the kids couldn’t careless the staff can’t stand me but on the upside only got 11 more working days to go until I’m back at college.

Yes am aware that I moan and so many people in the world have it harder than me. Well sorry but sometimes I need to feel appreciated. And sometimes I feel like nobody could careless what I’m doing. So sorry if I moan too much but I hate this. I am not a teacher, I’m just not patient enough, hard-working enough or committed enough. Newsflash: Mish wants a life that she enjoys and working a twelve hour day doing a rewardless task for people who couldn’t careless is not a life I want thankyou very much.

I want to do a job that actually matters to somebody, anybody, one person somewhere. One where at the end of the week, or month, or year someone might actually turn around and say yes you’ve worked hard ‘thankyou’. A job where I could look back and say ‘I did this’. I want a life,not a drudgery sorry if this seems selfish to you all or naieve or whatever but I’m going to try my damnedest to get what I want and I am aware that this may end with me dieing penniless somewhere in Spain (anybody get the quote?) but right now that seems like a better future than getting up and teaching, not haveing time to spend with my friends, not knowing what half of them are doing because I never see them, have contact with them and am fully aware that my grasp of the english language is going rapidly downhill because I only ever spend significant time with eleven year olds!

The Cthulu was fantastic my Favourite Uncle, the Alcoholic, Sweetie, BS et al did a fine job and everyone who came….oh they were magnifiscent! Even my Warder was soooo fiinnnne playing my fiance! Now that was a fun dance!

Mainly I guess I’m pissed off at whoever the stupid fucker was who planned Todays broadcast this morning. Nobody wants to listen to pro-lifers claiming that breast cancer is a reason for their cause as they wake up.

4 thoughts on “Moaning Mishey

  1. I want to do a job that actually matters to somebody, anybody, one person somewhere. One where at the end of the week, or month, or year someone might actually turn around and say yes you’ve worked hard ‘thankyou’.

    Have you ever thought about working for Connexions? They’re an organisation who try to work to get underpriviledged but bright kids thinking about going into Higher Education.

    I worked with them over the summer and chatted to some of the staff. A lot of them used to be teachers, and had said they left the job because it was thankless and you got very little job satisfaction.

    However in this job, they related a lot more closely to the kids, and they got a lot more job satisfaction out of widening the kids’ horizons rather than bulldozing them through the National Curriculum. The pressure was off and the results were a lot more immediate.

    I hated the summer schools. It was long, hot, tiring, at times boring, and at the end of every day I wanted to throttle most of the teachers and half of the kids.

    However, there were two moments that made the summer schools worth while for me, and that was seeing two 14 year olds so inspired by what they saw that they started asking their teachers what A-levels they needed to get into University to study certain subjects, and in the case of one kid, asking for recommendations on what she should read next now she’d read all (all! at 14!) of Shakespeare’s plays.

    Seeing them inspired like that is amazing. Especially these kids, who come from backgrounds where no-one they know has gone to University, and where A-levels are considered a waste of time because you don’t get paid to do them.

    Connexions have an office in Dalton Square in Lancaster (big purple and orange logo – you can’t miss it) if you’re interest is sparked…

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