I do know that it’s just how it feels but it is very difficult to feel that things haven’t just spiralled completely down the drain since November. My pattern finding brain is trying to find links that just aren’t there. Crashing the car has causality to my state of mind but seeing really horrible things … Read More
2020 was a study in grief for me, an understanding of the sheer heaviness of it, the shaking emotion of it. Every day I had to remind myself in the morning that my father was dead, because I was terrified that I would forget and try to call him or have to relive the initial … Read More
(Content Warning – this is pretty grim in case the title doesn’t give that away) In the last ten years I’ve seen three people be run over in Lancaster and thats honestly beginning to feel like a lot. My whole life is beginning to feel like a lot to be quite honest, which is possibly … Read More
Last year I wondered if I actually was Greyromantic, I was caught up in I think one of the most intense romances of my life. I do love regularly, I love widely, apparently I can love a lot deeper than I thought, but romance? Romance varies from partner to partner, a take out and chips, … Read More
I kind of hate the compliment some medical professionals use – that of having good insight into your mental health condition. I mean I get it, it’s like warning the phlebotomist that you might faint before she takes your blood. But, when you’re literally trying to think about what’s happening and the sodding organ that … Read More