Alanis and Me

There is a woman out there who seems to view the world in the same way as I do…we’re not talking pretty much here, we’re talking almost exactly. It’s just a shame that that woman is Alanis Morrisette. Now I can understand why Jagged Little Pill got to me, it was released right into my teeny angsty shouty female stage.

`Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity
I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner
It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced
Are you thinking of me when you fuck her?`

And come on the line ‘would she go down on you in a theatre?’ Sheer genius for tapping into adolescence…well mine anyway. So anyway, I bought her second albulm with a birthday gift voucher not really having high hopes. She delivered. Not many people I know rated Supposed Former Infatuation Junkie…mainly because the title is kinda self-absorbed I think. It’s like most of my poetry has a private title and a public one; the private one fixing it for me in my head, the public one a lot shorter and more ambiguous usually.

`that I would be loved even when I numb myself
that I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
that I would be loved even when I was fuming
that I would be good even if I was clingy

that I would be good even if I lost sanity
that I would be good
whether with or without you`

Hell it even reads like some of my poems…usually the ones that I don’t let people see. See at the time I thought I was getting over Blue Eyes and she thought she was getting over her whoever. I even loved the Unplugged Albulm, should I be worried she speaks to me so much, the only other artist who I get quite so intense over is my beloved Bob Dylan. Not even Joan Baez speaks to me so personally, mainly coz Baez gets me with her covers of Dylan’s poetry and her anti-war stuff. Course Dylan wasn’t releasing albulms that bizarrely parried my own life throughout my teens and post teens. Yeah I know you can read yourself into any lyrics but I find it odd that she grabbed me with Jagged Little Pill (yeah I have got some of her previous stuff and there are a few nuggets in there but I hadn’t heard her chronologically until JLP) and is still grabbing me several albulms later and all the way through.

`I’ve always wanted for you what you’ve wanted for yourself
and yet I wanted to save us high water or hell
and I kept on ignoring the ambivalence you felt
and in the meantime I lost myself
in the meantime I lost myself
I’m sorry I lost myself

2 thoughts on “Alanis and Me

  1. I know the feeling. Possibly listening to two albums back-to-back this morning while feeling as I do wasn’t the best idea.

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