Edit: This entry was written whilst I was very very tired and seriously lacking sleep. I did close this entry for a little while to have some discussion with Yellow Sign refs. Closing entries is a concept that I am philosophically against on this blog and thus it returns. The rest of the ref team have made quite clear to me that this is how I perceived things at the time and does not accurately reflect ref thinking on a number of things.
I was not capable in that sleep deprived state of reacting appropriately to a couple of players having a bitch session pre-game and this entry was not intended to insult either players or refs. Apologies available if necessary.
I’m not sure how it went to be quite honest. I ended up staying up very late on Friday night doing things that I had expected to be finished Friday afternoon with my Manly Viking. (Apparently one of the artefacts didn’t dry off at all during the event anyway.) So by the time this morning that I was even vaguely close to finishing the big prop (Y’golonak for anyone wondering) I wasn’t entirely compos of how things were looking…(a lot shittier than I had intended and I also forgot to add mouths onto the hands).
I decided to take a bus onto campus to calm down after serially disappointing the other refs. in unfinished artefacts and forgotten things. It worked, right up until I got onto campus and had to sit in a room and listen to the players discuss how we (the refs) had fucked things up.
I’m honestly not sure if I’m adding anything to the Yellow Sign anymore, or indeed if I ever was. I used to sort of pass off criticism as being from the Alcoholic because a girl had invaded his boys club. I can’t do that anymore and I begin to suspect that I shouldn’t be a ref because I actually cause more work than I get done. Of course the point has been made that if I do offer my resignation then the other refs won’t be able to continue the YS because there will be too few refs to do the job. I’m starting to wonder if I should suggest a replacement for myself and then bow out gracefully.