Yeah this entry is probably TMI for most people. There may well be graphic details.
So, I love my pill, I really do. I never realised quite how weird it seems to be that it makes me horny rather than totally kills my sex drive. Then I started talking to other girls. However, it seems like recently it might be making me utterly bizarro during my period. I mean, I’m always fairly weird during my period, I come out with the wierdest things (no really my mouth just opens – I mean more than normal, and with freakier things… the offal is a case in point… gods the offal is a case in point) but they are usually kinda of sex oriented or… well hormonally freaky.
Anyway, for the past few months I’ve been emotionally wierd. I mean crying all over the place and really, really snappy. That isn’t usual for me. It is true that maybe it could just be the stress of being effectively jobless getting to me on my period especially. But then this month it looks like I’ve got physical signs. My period should have finished. In fact it seemed to have. Twice so far. Thats two pairs of knickers I’ve ruined so far. I’m back taking my pill (I take it three weeks of the month and then have a week off)
So the doctor is of the opinion that it might be a one off, gods I hope so. But I really don’t want to change my pill, hearing all the hell stories of pills really makes me concerned. I don’t want to be bothered with contraception hell at the moment. I am beginning to come to the conclusion though that I might have to.
Still, I suppose it is true that I do at least know I’m not pregnant. This doesn’t make me feel much better. At all.