I guess I’m not easy going, which is one of the things I like to think I am. However, I do think it takes a lot for me to dislike someone, no actually thats not true at all. I do like to think that there are not that many people that I dislike. This is true. But it only takes one thing to make me dislike a person and I do what I dislike in other people, I judge them according to my own moral standards.
Thenceforth that person will bug me, their hypocritical stance in one instance I will then overlay on every social situation I find myself in, unless I’m very, very drunk. Even then there’s no guarantee.
Now, I know that I can change my emotional reaction to things. I know, for example that by my own efforts I can drag myself up out of the Swamp I get into sometimes (melancholia, depression, call it what you like) therefore, by my own efforts I should be able to stop being angry and upset in reaction to people I can’t stand.
The thing is though, whereas I recognise the symptoms of my depression this anger is caused by being in someone else’s presence. I can avoid these people sure, but what do I do when I’m round them. I have no idea how to deal with anger. It’s not something that I need to manage most of the time.