I don’t think anybody who hasn’t produced something creative gets this. By ‘something creative’ I mean a story, a theatre production (especially a theatre production), an art show. Anything, but there’s that point where you’re convinced that it can’t happen well, that you haven’t put enough of anything into it, there’s that point where your vision narrows and expands. Expands to all that something could have been had you had an unlimited budget in terms of money and time, and narrows to every single thing that hasn’t happened.
I can’t wait to get into the middle of this event, but whilst I’m on the liminal edges of it I am neither one thing nor the other and panting with the sheer exhaustion of it all.