So, I’m at the point where this has become Hard. As in I actively do not want to do this anymore. I want to hug my friends. I want to call up a lover and fuck. I want to have a party where we are all jam packed into a garden.
Obviously I’m not going to but I’m hitting the point where it’s a struggle. Chester Zoo cancelled all experience days this year so The Jellicle and I won’t be playing with Meerkats in October so partly this is disappointment.
Yesterday I played with the Bonsai Kaiju and the Smol Dragon and obviously socially distancing in the same garden is harder than doing it via a phone screen.
I need to get out and walk for something that isn’t work.
I probably also need to go back on the Anxiety meds. I can still do this but it’s getting harder.