Today I finished the tale of a dead man. It’s banal but feels significant in that way that life does sometimes. I was with LT. We got to talking about Feles Umbra and that she had toasted him at the symbl last Saturday. It was through Leth that she’d met him, I had thought she … Read More
We symbled on Saturday. It’s a modern Heathen drinking ritual, part of a Blot sometimes but something that stands alone and has enough of a grounding that atheists and other religious types can join in. You roughly stand in a circle pass the mead horn around and each person toasts three rounds: the first for … Read More
(Content Warning – grisly discussion of the circumstances of the death of a friend) On Saturday I had my Mexican Party complete with symbl for Lammas in the middle of it and Lithuanian Troll toasted Fele Umbra. I had not thought about toasting him with the honoured dead, and apparently she thought twice because she … Read More
This week I heard about Fele Umbra dying. I have a lot of thoughts. Not least because I knew him most through the Naiad and Hijinks. Mostly I remember the few times I was sober meeting him and a morass of drunken times merged into one. I say I was sober, I’m not completely certain … Read More
(Content Warning: Suicide, recent real world suicides my own thoughts on my own mental health, don’t read if you’re not in the right place) Today I heard a man I barely knew but had had some intense online conversations with over the pandemic had killed himself. He was a LARP photographer so he had touched … Read More
Today is my Dad’s birthday, he would have been 77. My Aunt was 75 this year, my Dad never reached 75 and he was her older brother. I guess I’m a bit stuck on that, probably because he was stuck on getting older than his Dad. Had a drink with my sister and Mum over … Read More
Honestly if you’d asked me a couple of years ago if I was a fan of Annie Nightingale I’d have said no. I still don’t describe myself as such, but I was surprised by how saddened I was to hear of her death. Then I got a bit of a shock, because honestly I was … Read More
I laughed at some of the memes. A lot of the memes to be honest. This from someone who was so horrified by her reaction to Maggie Thatcher’s death that I donated to Shelter. I guess I did recognise that I was dehumanising/othering people who happen to be a magnitude of wealthy that is completely … Read More
Fucking hell. I, and – fuck it I can’t be the only one – a whole chunk of my generation, have had some bad luck when it comes to children’s tv presenters. Jimmy Saville was just too fucked up for words but at least it was – in hindsight for those of us viewers who … Read More
(Content Warning – this discusses my personal history of suicide ideation – I am frank about being suicidal as a teenager. Don’t worry I am not actively suicidal right now) I have been suicidal for the vast majority of my life. Most of my adult life has been about managing that desire/urge/background assumption. I don’t … Read More
