We symbled on Saturday. It’s a modern Heathen drinking ritual, part of a Blot sometimes but something that stands alone and has enough of a grounding that atheists and other religious types can join in. You roughly stand in a circle pass the mead horn around and each person toasts three rounds: the first for … Read More
(Content Warning – grisly discussion of the circumstances of the death of a friend) On Saturday I had my Mexican Party complete with symbl for Lammas in the middle of it and Lithuanian Troll toasted Fele Umbra. I had not thought about toasting him with the honoured dead, and apparently she thought twice because she … Read More
Ah this one I’ve definitely blogged about before and there’s a fair bit on this blog about not being able to tell my parents about my life. I’m not really sure why it upset me so much that I couldn’t tell them about things going on in my life. But I got used to it, … Read More
On Friday I listened to a voice recording that turned my brain inside out, on Saturday I got lost in a changing room and yesterday I couldn’t find my way out of one of the covered shopping areas in town. The smallest one of them. It was a little scary. I stepped out of The … Read More
I was reminded earlier today of a poem, an ex had recorded it for me at one point and I fancied listening to it. So I did. That may have been a mistake. I listened and was, I dunno, spinning out. I was sobbing and I was real in my toes, maybe, I wasn’t here … Read More
It’s a curious thing to begin to feel real after a year of really really not.
(Content Warning: Suicide, recent real world suicides my own thoughts on my own mental health, don’t read if you’re not in the right place) Today I heard a man I barely knew but had had some intense online conversations with over the pandemic had killed himself. He was a LARP photographer so he had touched … Read More
It’s easy enough when it’s a dead author to distance yourself from them whilst still enjoying their works. But what do you do when they’re still alive and creating? In J K Rowling’s case it’s been pretty easy not to engage with her continuing content, the Robert Galbraith stuff is just crap and the whole … Read More
Well, I managed to run Evil Bilbo’s Game at The Smoke. It was ok, it needs de-gendering a bit more, hadn’t noticed quite how gendered the names on the family tree were until right at the end when my lovely experienced players had to go with it. Got almost all possible endings out of the … Read More
So I did not do well at keeping them last year but I rather think that’s because my mental health was in the absolute toilet. Today’s tarot reading rather confirms that and re-emphasises that I work best with rhythms to my days.
