Today started with some disappointment for me, I like my birthday, very much and I like making something of it. Some years that has been having a cuppa and cake with DS Luke, always I take it off work and have done my whole adult life. Sometimes I have a full roast dinner with my … Read More
Sometime in 2008 I stopped Dom (Princess Lex’s car – I was driving at the time ) and demanded the Jellicle and/or FJ get out and grab me the rather fantastic bottle I had seen discarded at the recycling point in Hala. The Jellicle moaned and they all laughed at me. I made up a … Read More
Last year I kept them specific and I kept them a lot more than I have done previously. 1. I have three stone to lose, that’s three tattoos I’ll reward myself with. 2. I’ll write everyday 3. I will compile my poetry into a manuscript 4. I will draw every week.
I was driving along a particular junction in Lancaster today and I suddenly really wanted to go drink a beer in one of the skankiest pubs I’ve ever been to. It was a canal boat permanently moored up and reachable through basically a field and muddy footpath. The only reason I ever went to the … Read More
(Content Warning: This is a full and frank description of my latest sex toy purchase. If it makes you uncomfortable to read about me masturbating then please don’t read on.) The same friend as suggested I buy a knock-off womaniser had me spend money on a vibrator that’s normally over a hundred quid. I am … Read More
I always want to spell his name with a v or not enough fs. I only just discovered Kirill Gerstein as a pianist and he’s got some really solid opinions on Rachmaninoff which I don’t have the ears to properly understand if we’re quite honest, but I like the way he plays him. I wonder … Read More
(Content Warning: Mentions my own suicidal ideation and preferred method) Turns out you probably can be Depressed without being suicidal. I guess that’s something of a learning curve. I haven’t been suicidal in a really long time, like I think over a year. I don’t think I’d properly absorbed that. I’m suicidal again, I don’t … Read More
Turns out that if I am told that wings are served with ghost pepper hot sauce then I’ll avoid them, if I am tempted to a pub by FJ and tennis who then provides me with hot wings and I don’t find out what pepper is in then until I’m half way in… well then … Read More
Today I had a very surreal experience. I was at work and I suddenly came over wanting to cry but obviously couldn’t so I tried to concentrate on work and felt like I’d divided myself in two and one of me was screaming in a tiny room. It was so real, it was like I … Read More
I laughed at some of the memes. A lot of the memes to be honest. This from someone who was so horrified by her reaction to Maggie Thatcher’s death that I donated to Shelter. I guess I did recognise that I was dehumanising/othering people who happen to be a magnitude of wealthy that is completely … Read More
