I think one of the most annoying and frustrating things that people have said to me since I started sharing my chronic fatigue symptoms was about yoga. The comment that they didn’t understand why I found yoga poses to be cardio exercises. Now, yoga can be cardio, but generally they’d be talking about my finding … Read More
I never want to be completely satisfied, I always want to be aiming for the next thing and then the next. I always want to want. I’ve been accused of being greedy and of making myself unhappy. I don’t think that’s true, I want some things but mostly experiences. At my worst I do make … Read More
Day One of a two day visit to a Spa with my Mum. I’ve been here before, over ten years ago but at least then it was me, M-I-L and Mum and there was no over night stay. This comes after the awkward moment in France earlier this year when Mum got as far as … Read More
I suppose it’s very me to be reminded that men can be considerate and self-aware, not by a friend I’ve known for decades or some lover or other, but by a guy I’m having cyber sex with. I stand by feeling worn down by men as a gender but, yeah, when they’re doing it right … Read More
I frequently feel that my attraction to men is despite them rather than because of them. I suspect this is altogether unfair but I’m fed up of making allowances because a man was too young, misunderstood or otherwise got the wrong end of whatever stick. A friend recently posted on Facebook that, when faced with … Read More
I think the worst thing about recovery, any recovery, physical, mental, everything is that it’s never a straight line. There’s no straight forward gradually rising slope upwards. It’s all curling back and forth getting something right, whilst something else goes wrong. It’s frustrating. Unless you look at it like a game of Talisman I guess. … Read More
CW: suicide, suicide ideation Spoilers: Minimal but some I was genuinely excited about the trailer for Aladdin. Will Smith struck me as the best possible option to be cast as Genie. I wondered if Robin Williams had still been alive whether they could have managed to cast anyone else. Aladdin is one of those rare … Read More
CW: Suicide I have a real problem with suicide. I’m technically too old to be an Emo and too young to have been an actual Goth. (Though tell that to the neighbour who called eighteen year old Mish’s dyed black hair a phase). But I’ve got the Anxiety, Depression and Suicidal Urges to go with … Read More
My bets paid out to 5th and 6th place for the National so I’m up on the bookies, a position I enjoy being in. Then Cambridge did me proud! So FJ is buying me dinner plus dessert and coffee. It’s not been a bad weekend, even when I had to bail on M-I-L’s birthday it … Read More
This weekend I will probably be losing some money. I’ve got high hopes for the National but less so for the Boat Race. However, I got good odds on Anibale Fly and they’ve distinctly shortened since. I put a bit on One For Arthur mostly for last year, not with any real thoughts to win … Read More
