This is New

Day One of a two day visit to a Spa with my Mum. I’ve been here before, over ten years ago but at least then it was me, M-I-L and Mum and there was no over night stay. This comes after the awkward moment in France earlier this year when Mum got as far as … Read More


Improper Reminders

I suppose it’s very me to be reminded that men can be considerate and self-aware, not by a friend I’ve known for decades or some lover or other, but by a guy I’m having cyber sex with. I stand by feeling worn down by men as a gender but, yeah, when they’re doing it right … Read More


Men

I frequently feel that my attraction to men is despite them rather than because of them. I suspect this is altogether unfair but I’m fed up of making allowances because a man was too young, misunderstood or otherwise got the wrong end of whatever stick. A friend recently posted on Facebook that, when faced with … Read More


Recovery

I think the worst thing about recovery, any recovery, physical, mental, everything is that it’s never a straight line. There’s no straight forward gradually rising slope upwards. It’s all curling back and forth getting something right, whilst something else goes wrong. It’s frustrating. Unless you look at it like a game of Talisman I guess. … Read More


Aladdin and Me

CW: suicide, suicide ideation Spoilers: Minimal but some I was genuinely excited about the trailer for Aladdin. Will Smith struck me as the best possible option to be cast as Genie. I wondered if Robin Williams had still been alive whether they could have managed to cast anyone else. Aladdin is one of those rare … Read More





Inappropriate or Appreciative?

If you’re sitting in a coffee shop with an attractive friend is it wrong to look at them and really hope someone in the shop has assumed you’re dating? It probably bespeaks insecurity on my part, but y’know she was looking hot today.