Last night I went to bed without my pyjamas on, not an unusual circumstance but drifting off to sleep I was aware that it has hit autumn and it is too cold to sleep nude now. Anyway about four am I wake up for no good reason (I’m warm, my brain is just convinced I … Read More
Sometimes I catch myself feeling astonishingly self-satisfied with my life. I have travelled (four continents and counting), I have eaten some truly weird stuff (including guinea-pig – several times, alligator – not recommended and rat-onna-stick – kind of wish I was joking about that one) and I have met some fascinating people (the guy who’d … Read More
I have to admit to having a strange relationship with dating. Partly that’s because I’m poly but more and more I suspect it’s because I find it very easy to know if I want to shag someone and a lot less easy to know how to go about ‘dating’. But then it occurs to me, … Read More
I’ve written on this blog a fair amount about my deceased Grandma, I think probably because I started this blog in 2002, (well the forerunner to what became this blog) and she died in 2003. My Grandma B is alive. For the majority of my life I used to call her once a week and … Read More
I think one of the most annoying and frustrating things that people have said to me since I started sharing my chronic fatigue symptoms was about yoga. The comment that they didn’t understand why I found yoga poses to be cardio exercises. Now, yoga can be cardio, but generally they’d be talking about my finding … Read More
I never want to be completely satisfied, I always want to be aiming for the next thing and then the next. I always want to want. I’ve been accused of being greedy and of making myself unhappy. I don’t think that’s true, I want some things but mostly experiences. At my worst I do make … Read More
Day One of a two day visit to a Spa with my Mum. I’ve been here before, over ten years ago but at least then it was me, M-I-L and Mum and there was no over night stay. This comes after the awkward moment in France earlier this year when Mum got as far as … Read More
I suppose it’s very me to be reminded that men can be considerate and self-aware, not by a friend I’ve known for decades or some lover or other, but by a guy I’m having cyber sex with. I stand by feeling worn down by men as a gender but, yeah, when they’re doing it right … Read More
I frequently feel that my attraction to men is despite them rather than because of them. I suspect this is altogether unfair but I’m fed up of making allowances because a man was too young, misunderstood or otherwise got the wrong end of whatever stick. A friend recently posted on Facebook that, when faced with … Read More
I think the worst thing about recovery, any recovery, physical, mental, everything is that it’s never a straight line. There’s no straight forward gradually rising slope upwards. It’s all curling back and forth getting something right, whilst something else goes wrong. It’s frustrating. Unless you look at it like a game of Talisman I guess. … Read More
