I got cancelled on by my therapist tonight, she claimed to have a powercut. In reality she likely did, however I caught myself analysing last week’s session for things that I could have done wrong. I was a bit upset following my Mum’s birthday (the first one without Dad) – I know, so unexpected right?! … Read More
I’ve done a couple of online LARPs this year, that is to say, they were all *called* LARPS and proved that some LARPERs have clearly not done much roleplay by post, tabletop or forum RP. LARP stands for Live Action Roleplay guys, not just Roleplay… ahem, right that’s my irritating pedantry out of the way. … Read More
Le week-end dernier, je suis allée à une boum! Mais, c’est ne pas correct. J’ai organisé une fête! C’etait en ligne. J’ai utilisé Discord et j’aime bien les resultes. Beaucoup des personnes attendes et j’ai été surpris parce que c’est un peu difficile d’assister d’une soirée enligne. Ma soeur et new neveux attends avec mon … Read More
So, I’m at the point where this has become Hard. As in I actively do not want to do this anymore. I want to hug my friends. I want to call up a lover and fuck. I want to have a party where we are all jam packed into a garden. Obviously I’m not going … Read More
That stages of grief woman got the emotions bang on. I seem to be rapidly cycling through them some days and other weeks floating through different ones much longer. What is really helping though is my having taken LSD. Not recently, but in the past. (Seriously it was hard already to get hold of it, … Read More
I have been and am very lucky. I’m very social as standard, I have a lot of friendly acquaintances and friends and I honestly haven’t found this lockdown to be an isolating experience. Dad dying did completely shut me down, there appeared at least three people at my door bearing gifts and cards and flowers … Read More
I have a particular relationship with makeup. I am absolutely fascinated by it, I used to nick my cousins make-up when I was a kid, probably because I wasn’t allowed any when I was that young. (She’s a year older than me). Maybe just because I was an annoying kid. I had one of those … Read More
Some days I am better than others. Dad is gone and everything I didn’t manage to do and tell him about some days hits hard. Some days it puts me into his back patio one summer’s day talking about his grief for his Dad. I had longer with him than he had with his Dad. … Read More
I listen to a lot of True Crime podcasts. I read a lot of True Crime too. I’m aware of patterns of behaviour of criminals, and to be fair the interesting ones are very similar to the boring ones they just tend to be smarter, more personable or luck into a blind spot in the … Read More
No Remote Pride prompt today, it feels weird. I’m missing my Dad. The Princess, Mum and I discussed gravestones today and looked at what we wanted written on Dad’s. There’s some other memorials we talked about too. Mum cried, I didn’t, quite. The Princess is less bothered by grave markers than she is by other … Read More
