I get very frustrated with my brain of late. I’ve been too tired to get out of bed for most of last week. If I was out of bed I was at work. I haven’t done yoga in about three weeks. There’s a constant toing and froing in my thoughts asking if this is physical … Read More
(Content Warning – this is more me naval gazing about my own poor mental health, mentions suicide) The thing about the writing part of trauma informed therapy is that you end up going off into the things you need to examin to get past them. And mostly the stuff I’m trying to get through is … Read More
(Content Warning: More mental health stuff) It has been a standing joke for as long as I can remember that despite not being born Catholic I automatically feel guilty about everything. Some of this I put down to Anxiety… ok I’m easing off a bit on the ‘I have never had anxiety it was misdiagnosed … Read More
M-i-L suggested that all the awful at the end of last year was to balance out all the good stuff over the summer. Well, it’s still happening and I’m not a fan. The thing about the heights of feeling last year, the sheer ecstasy is that this year I have the lows. The physically painful … Read More
I’m pretty fucking angry right now. Today I was explaining to someone that I had worked throughout the pandemic. I was asked if I worked retail. No… I was asked if I worked in healthcare, specifically the first question was if I was a nurse. No… I explained I was a support worker. Oh like … Read More
Honestly, surviving ended up being a thing last year same as the year before. I want to lose the weight I need to and for every stone I lose I will reward myself with a tattoo. I will do some yoga once a day, whether that is simply standing in Mountain Pose or managing some … Read More
(Content Warning: Discusses Dementia) “Before the Roman came to Rye or out to Severn strode,The rolling English drunkard made the rolling English road.” This week I recited poetry with an old guy that I work with. He’s been sharp as anything ever since. This is the old guy who occaisionally thinks I’m his daughter. Which, … Read More
Tonight DS Luke came over for dinner. There was a risk assessment beforehand, and he did an LFT, but The Jellicle and Imp agreed it was probably less risky than… well the entirety of my job. I made lasagne, a tricolore that wasn’t perfectly achieved, three types of cheese, yoghurt in the béchamel and my … Read More
I am struggling to be motivated to do much of anything right now. The pandemic is almost over and I’ve been living in a state of reasonably high alert for over a year now. I know all the things I should be doing to combat this stress reaction, hell I’ve even been able to do … Read More
I am stressed to fuck and in a great deal of pain. One thing I really hate about fatigue, I suppose I mean Fatigue, is when I have to push through it to get something done because it wrecks me for weeks afterwards. I’m leapfrogging painkillers right now and I haven’t been able to take … Read More
