I’ve been concentrating on therapy to deal with trauma symptoms – trying not to dissociate and remain in the present, and appreciating that some of it does apply to dealing with ADHD. Mostly the stuff about staying in the present and getting organised. However, I’m really struggling with any of the organised elements of work … Read More
(Content Warning – talking about mental health and self diagnosis, specifically mentioning ADHD, ASD, CPTSD, Depression also referencing suicide ideation) I keep seeing pro-self-diagnosis and vehemently anti self diagnosis things up on Facebook, Twitter and TikTok, hell The Comic Satyr even referenced me in their tweet about it. Originally I was very pro-self-diagnosis because there’s … Read More
I don’t think I’ve been less involved with Girl Guiding in my life and yet Lady Baden-Powell popped into my head today. Guides came up the other week in some sort of conversation and I was irritated by that person’s association of them with cadets and army type activities, the Girl guides have always been … Read More
It’s a Wiccan thing, perfect love and perfect trust, it’s about how you meet other witches. It’s about how you treat the universe. It’s about believing that other people know who they are and who you are, so you’ve got to take a step back and understand that everything is unfolding as it should and … Read More
M-i-L suggested that all the awful at the end of last year was to balance out all the good stuff over the summer. Well, it’s still happening and I’m not a fan. The thing about the heights of feeling last year, the sheer ecstasy is that this year I have the lows. The physically painful … Read More
(Content Warning – more of me musing on my mental health which is pretty poor right now) I’ve mentioned before my struggling with the way Laura Richards signs off from Real Crime Profile, her sign off is ‘Always trust your instincts’ and I’ve written before about how I was taught not to trust my instincts, … Read More
Breathing to now, it’s a technique from therapy, you keep your eyes on a specific place and you breathe, box breathing. I did it in a park in the rain today. The reason you’re supposed do the exercise is to synch you up with what’s actually happening, the premise was you’re supposed to be able … Read More
The pandemic was a strange time, I made a lot of friends all over the place. I like to make friends, it’s a distinct advantage to being me. The disadvantage or one of them is the godsdamned insomnia and nightmares when I’m trying to work through my shit. Work has provided me with a quite … Read More
(Content Warning – discussion of my own suicidal ideation though not in an immediate sense, thoughts about Death) Apparently more people still read this blog than I thought – hi Archie! And I mean still, we’re talking twenty years of this thing come October. Archie is my longest subscriber. It’s reasonably well known that I … Read More
Thé body feels everything, I can’t work out if it’s social expectation that has me locating my emotions so viscerally or if genuinely the emotions live in specific areas of the body. Obviously I’ve had covid so I’m very tired and flat out with that but also I’m very sad this week. I think the … Read More
