My Aunt died this morning. Though I have had a lot of women in my life I called Aunty she was my only actual Aunt. She didn’t like me much. To be fair a lot of people who were adults when I was a kid didn’t like me much, I was very annoying. I also … Read More
I struggle regularly, but especially when talking about this blog in real life, with explaining why this is on the internet. Why do I have a blog if not to in some way pose for my audience or perceived audience… and that is in some way true or at least I always thought it was. … Read More
So, I started blogging in 2002, this site’s archives go back to 2003, I have been struggling to explain what I’m doing with this since the beginning. Never mind to anyone else to myself as well. I have used the phrase “something to entertain myself on the train” and overused the word diarise frankly. It’s … Read More
Been a while hasn’t it? How do I love? I’ve always described myself as loving widely not deeply. Eighteen years ago I said that I didn’t trust myself when I fell in love, that I couldn’t trust myself to think. I should read my old blog entries more often perhaps, or I’m claiming insight with … Read More
I love the game I run for my antipodean friends but I do not love the time difference. I love the buzz that GMing gives me, there is a great deal of fun in creating stories with your friends. I started out a shared narrative roleplayer, tomorrow I’m DMing Dungeons and Dragons so that’s a … Read More
Once, when I was ten or eleven and I and my family were on holiday in the south of France, we went to a beach the day after a storm. The waves were like nothing I’d seen before and like nothing I’ve seen since, though I’m sure they grew in my imagination. In my memory … Read More
I do name the relationships people have to me, by naming them I indicate they’re of certain importance. Friends, Lovers, Boyfriend, Girlfriend. I perhaps imbue them with more meaning because it matters to me how the people around me are connected to me. Probably the most ‘me’s used in one sentence on this blog. I … Read More
I recently joined Noom because I’m four stone overweight. Last time I needed to lose weight I did it mostly by myself and via willpower. This time around I’m allergic to raw fruit and vegetables (technically I was last time I just didn’t know it…) and have chronic pain and fatigue. My willpower is more … Read More
I started blogging in 2003. I was introduced to it as a concept of keeping your diary online and throughout my (somewhat spotty) fourteen year history of blogging that is what it has been for me. It’s my diary online. I’ve been criticised a lot in the past for just writing about my life, after … Read More
