The thing that I do love about polyamory, that I’ve loved since before the Jellicle and I started this weird loving journey of ours is how each love adds to the loves you already have. How learning to love another person, understanding and building that language with them means you add to the language you … Read More
Last year I had a traumatic experience. I had more than one if I want to get granular but honestly since seeing the girl who attempted suicide I feel like all the negatives in my life have been turned up to eleven. Realistically what’s happening is I feel like everything is more negative and I … Read More
My job is stressful. But the thing is, the way I do my job is stressful. I can’t seem to explain why I need to not do my job the way I do because I’m not paid enough to do it the way I do. It comes across as materialistic and it’s not exactly, it’s … Read More
I’m pretty fucking angry right now. Today I was explaining to someone that I had worked throughout the pandemic. I was asked if I worked retail. No… I was asked if I worked in healthcare, specifically the first question was if I was a nurse. No… I explained I was a support worker. Oh like … Read More
My extra resolution this year, about my fashion choices, is to dress to show off that I have a great arse. I am completely unashamed about how excellent my arse is and about saying it for one very simple reason – waaaaaay back in 2003 or maybe 2002 when I lived in the webcam house … Read More
Last night I got a message inviting me to a birthday celebration at the end of March. It’s at the place Beautiful Lute and I roleplayed in immediately before our first date last year. On the weekend of her birthday. I figure it would give me a chance to hang out somewhere with people and … Read More
I wasn’t really feeling my birthday this year. I had planned to have dinner with my partners. All of them meeting each other. Then to rent a place with my Welsh partners to just hang in, to make some art in, and then… we broke up instead. I couldn’t share with them and so I’ve … Read More
One day of the week I work in a very traditional workplace. I’m providing support so not doing the type of manual labour most of the people around me are. It’s very nice to be quite honest because I get to feel like I have colleagues and sit and chat to them in the mess … Read More
Been a while hasn’t it? How do I love? I’ve always described myself as loving widely not deeply. Eighteen years ago I said that I didn’t trust myself when I fell in love, that I couldn’t trust myself to think. I should read my old blog entries more often perhaps, or I’m claiming insight with … Read More
Talking to people and experiencing it for myself I am noticing that there is a difference between queer and straight expectations after a break-up. It might be men vs women but I suspect it’s actually straight vs queer. Straight break-ups require much more breaking of contact. Queer ones there’s a level of continuing contact, trying … Read More
